I’ve noticed something about living with CPTSD that I never expected. When something good happens, or we accomplish something we’re proud of, it isn’t always followed by a celebration. Instead, it can be followed by an emotional crash. It’s as though doing something positive comes with the expectation that the emotional bill is about to […]
Publishing My Book Triggered My CPTSD
I Expected Relief. Instead, I Felt Fear. When I finally published my book, I thought I knew what I was going to feel. I expected relief after years of writing, editing, second-guessing, and rewriting chapters more times than I care to admit. I imagined there would be excitement, maybe even a quiet sense of pride […]
I Didn’t Set Out to Write a Memoir
Apparently I Wrote a Book Well… this is weird. After years of writing about Complex PTSD, trauma, healing, emotional chaos, and the occasional story about getting lost in New York despite living here for decades, I’ve somehow become a published author. I genuinely didn’t see that coming. If you’re new here, this is where I […]
CPTSD Shame Spiral: How It Really Feels
The Prosecution’s Case If you have CPTSD and you’re reading this, you probably know exactly what I’m talking about. That emotional black hole we fall into, the one that suddenly starts dragging up every bad thing we’ve ever done, every bad thing that’s ever been done to us, and every awkward interaction since 1997 and […]
Intentional Growth: Living Fully in 2026
Rethinking the New Year A lot of people see the New Year, at least the calendar one, as the time to make resolutions and set goals. And that’s perfectly fine to do, but I don’t really look at it that way. I feel you can make changes and set intentions any time of year, though […]
When Healing Hits Hard: CPTSD Truths
The Whiplash of Healing (And Why It Still Catches Me Off Guard) If you’ve read my blog for more than five minutes, you already know I’ve been on this healing ride for a long while. Long enough to have collected a whole scrapbook of “Oh wow, I finally get it” moments… and an equally thick […]
