When Healing Feels Like “Acting Younger” There’s a subtle shift that happens when you start healing from CPTSD. At first, it’s quiet. You notice you’re a little less tense in situations that used to put you on edge. Your body stops its constant scan for what might go wrong. You realize you don’t have to […]
I Thought I Was Further Along Than This
There’s this quiet expectation that after enough therapy, enough self-awareness, and enough “doing the work” that something clicks. Like one day you wake up and think, “Ah. There it is. I’m healed now.” Wouldn’t that be nice? The truth of the matter, however, is you can spend years healing and still have days, weeks, even, […]
The Burnout No One Talks About in Healing
The Expectation of Strength After “Doing the Work” There’s this quiet expectation that comes with healing. Once you’ve “done the work,” and you’ve survived the worst of it, when you can name your trauma and talk about it without completely falling apart… you’re supposed to be strong. Resilient. Grounded. And self-aware. The Pressure of Being […]
Why My CPTSD Makes Me a Walking Red Flag
My Nervous System is a Red Flag (And I’m Done Apologizing For It) I’m going to throw this out there: Those of us living with CPTSD are walking red flags. Yes, that may hit hard. It might even make you want to close the page. However, let’s be real, living with CPTSD often means our […]
Why Trauma & CPTSD Can Affect Your Memory
Realizing My Memory Gaps There’s something that’s really stood out to me as I’ve reached this point in my healing journey: how bad my memory actually is. I didn’t fully realize it at first. It only became obvious when other people started pointing it out. The missed details. Forgotten conversations. Moments where I nodded along, […]
CPTSD and the Loneliness You Don’t Expect
Learning to Be Alone (and Actually Liking It) As I get older, I’ve noticed something I didn’t expect. It’s not that I want or need people around me all the time. I’ve learned to enjoy my own company; I actually find a kind of calm in that. The fact I am introverted plays a large […]
