Not a Political Statement I wasn’t going to write anything about this, because I never want my website or my podcast to become political. That’s never been the point. Trauma and CPTSD don’t belong to one party or ideology. They don’t check voter registration. They show up in bodies, in relationships, and in quiet moments […]
Healing the Distance Between Me and My Mom
The Part of My Childhood That Still Hits the Hardest I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the relationship I had with my parents while I was growing up. And the part that’s always been the one that hits me the hardest is the one with my mom. Not because she did anything wrong, far […]
Why I Wish I Spoke Up as a Child
The Thing I Wish My Younger Self Knew Last night I caught myself thinking, what’s the one thing I’d tell my younger self if I had the chance? The answer came to me quick, sharp, and almost painful. Speak up. That’s it. That’s the answer. If you want to read more of what I’d tell […]
Why CPTSD Makes Failure Feel Safer
Setting Myself Up To Fail When I first started therapy and learned about my CPTSD, I did one thing over and over: I set myself up to fail. My brain was on a mission to prove its own negativity right. Weirdly, failure felt safer; if it was coming anyway, at least I was in control. […]
CPTSD and the Struggle for True Acceptance
Why Acceptance Feels Like Everything There are many things CPTSD makes harder than they should be. For me, one of the big ones is my need to be accepted, not necessarily liked. I get that people will either like me or not. What I really want is to be accepted for who I am, and […]
The Questions That Never Got Answers
I’ve generally been a curious person. I just like learning things. Researching, asking questions, seeing how things work. There’s a satisfaction to be found in pulling apart the mess and trying to put it back together in a way that makes sense, even if it only makes sense to me. But trauma doesn’t always come […]
