The Messy Side of CPTSD CPTSD can make you snappy, defensive, moody, and unpredictable. It’ll make you shut down right when someone needs you the most. It’ll push you into self-sabotage, blowing up relationships, jobs, and chances before they even get off the ground. And occasionally? It makes you come across as cold, detached, or […]
Healing Out Loud: Writing My Trauma Online
Why I Share My Story Online Some people keep diaries. I decided to keep mine on the internet, where strangers (hi!) can read it. And for someone who has always been a private person, it seems like an odd choice to make. On paper, it doesn’t make sense. Why would a guy who spent most […]
How I’m Healing and Growing With CPTSD
Living with CPTSD and trauma, you often move through life so carefully that you forget who the real you is, or sometimes, you never even get the chance to know who you were, because the events happened so young. You shrink yourself, tuck away pieces, and survive, but it comes at the cost of feeling […]
7 Things I Wish I Knew Before Starting Therapy
When I walked into my first therapy session, I had absolutely no idea what I was doing. I honestly thought it’d be like the movies, me lying on a leather couch while some therapist with glasses scribbles notes and gently asks about my childhood, in a soothing voice that would have me opening up like […]
The Never-Ending CPTSD Checklist
Living with CPTSD is a Never-Ending Checklist Living with CPTSD, for me, is like living with a checklist that I’m constantly trying to check things off. The symptoms, the feelings, the actions. It’s like I’m carrying around this invisible clipboard. I’ll look at it and think: okay, did I manage my triggers today? Check. Did […]
Why CPTSD Makes Failure Feel Safer
Setting Myself Up To Fail When I first started therapy and learned about my CPTSD, I did one thing over and over: I set myself up to fail. My brain was on a mission to prove its own negativity right. Weirdly, failure felt safer; if it was coming anyway, at least I was in control. […]
