Sundays are often associated with relaxation, family time, and the anticipation of the week ahead. However, I struggle with Sunday’s. And it’s not in the sense of “Sunday dread” because a new work week is upon us. For me, a Sunday as a kid was the day that my abuse more than often occurred. Growing […]
I Can’t Fix Everything, And That’s Okay (Sort Of)
In my fifth decade on this earth, I’m only now beginning to accept that I can’t fix everything, no matter how badly I want to. And that truth? It’s brutal. Since I was a kid, I’ve carried this deep, unrelenting need to fix things. Not just the broken toy kind of fixing, but people, relationships, […]
Trauma Doesn’t Make You Stronger: A Journey of Healing
There is no truth to people saying that trauma makes you stronger. The fact is, it doesn’t. Trauma breaks you. It eats you alive and spits you back out in tiny pieces that you no longer recognize, and what is left are complex problems that you spend the next how many years trying to work […]
CPTSD Dysregulation Grounding Techniques Healing Journey Mental Health Mindfulness Rumination Trauma Recovery
Managing Rumination with Jazz and Mindfulness in cPTSD
Oh, I can’t stand ruminating! It’s one of the toughest parts of dealing with CPTSD, and trust me, there are a lot of tough parts. It feels like I’m stuck in this mindset where if I just keep replaying things in my head, I’ll eventually figure it out. Like I’ll finally gain some clarity and, […]
Overcoming the Superman Complex in CPTSD Healing
Being a major fan of DC comics and, more specifically, Superman, I was thrilled to hear the term “Superman Complex” used in therapy; it had my inner child jumping for joy. It seemed to me like a compliment. To have this and to be perceived in this way was kind of cool. Who wouldn’t want […]
From Shame to Self-Acceptance
For most of my life, I’ve struggled to accept the person I see in the mirror. But it’s never been about insecurity, not in the way people usually mean it. My discomfort with my appearance goes deeper than surface-level doubt. It’s rooted in childhood trauma, in abuse that left my body feeling like a prison. […]