Having cPTSD often makes you look at life through a black-and-white lens, and that your trauma response to life is not just constantly assessing whether or not people are safe but also whether our environments are safe too. For a really long time, my thinking was on a black-and-white level. You either liked/loved me or […]
Being Who I Am: Embracing My True Self Fully
Being our authentic selves takes a lot of work. To understand what is truly going on in our mind and body. It’s not conditional, but instead going all in on self-acceptance. This requires making the effort to compassionately tolerate our flaws as well as celebrating our strengths. Often at times on my journey, I wish […]
Learning To Accept Happiness and Joy
This quote hits home every time I read it. Far too often we get so used to the struggle that we forget. Or for some of us, we are only starting to learn what it means to be happy and experience joy because our trauma happened at such a young age that it is all […]
I’m Sensitive and That’s Okay
Things we do to protect ourselves make it harder for other people to get close. Something that I am pro at. Putting up walls and downplaying anything I felt. But it turns out, as I am slowly going through a personal transition, that I am a lot more sensitive than I realized. And perhaps deep […]
Realizing I Have Many Lost Years
When my aunt passed away last December, I was made executor of her will and estate. Something that I felt wasn’t my place or that I should do. It wasn’t because I felt I couldn’t do it, but because I lived in another country and I knew that it would cause some issues within the […]
Overcoming Self-Hate: A Journey to Embrace Self-Love
I wrote about how I have reached the anger stage in grief recently. But what I didn’t realize at the time is how difficult it is for me to process one particular emotion, and that is hate. No matter how I look at things that have happened, I still can’t say I hate my abuser, but […]