Facing the Fear Yesterday I was a guest speaker at a mental health panel in Brooklyn. I was one of four people invited to speak about our trauma experiences with mental health professionals, and as I looked around the room, I couldn’t help but think, “How on earth did I get here?” To say I […]
Why Feeling Good Feels Unsafe After Trauma
Healing Doesn’t Come With A Manual There’s one thing they don’t really tell you in therapy, or at least not in a way that fully lands, and that is how unbelievably hard it is to rewire your brain so you can actually let good things happen in your life. It sounds like it should be […]
CPTSD: Healing In The In-Between
In the Thick of Learning Who I Am There is something that I am feeling to be in the thick of at the moment on my healing journey, and that is learning who I am. This stage of healing feels heavy. Because for so long trauma has shaped my identity. How I saw myself. How […]
CPTSD: The Messy Side No One Talks About
The Messy Side of CPTSD CPTSD can make you snappy, defensive, moody, and unpredictable. It’ll make you shut down right when someone needs you the most. It’ll push you into self-sabotage, blowing up relationships, jobs, and chances before they even get off the ground. And occasionally? It makes you come across as cold, detached, or […]
Healing Out Loud: Writing My Trauma Online
Why I Share My Story Online Some people keep diaries. I decided to keep mine on the internet, where strangers (hi!) can read it. And for someone who has always been a private person, it seems like an odd choice to make. On paper, it doesn’t make sense. Why would a guy who spent most […]
How I’m Healing and Growing With CPTSD
Living with CPTSD and trauma, you often move through life so carefully that you forget who the real you is, or sometimes, you never even get the chance to know who you were, because the events happened so young. You shrink yourself, tuck away pieces, and survive, but it comes at the cost of feeling […]