For most of my life, I didn’t trust myself. Honestly, not really. I could read a room in seconds, crack a joke under pressure, or keep things calm while everything burned down behind my eyes, but ask me what I needed. Or whether someone’s behavior felt safe? I had no idea. I’d either panic and […]
CPTSD and the Trauma That Gaslights You
There’s no polite way to say this, but CPTSD is a mindfuck. It doesn’t just hit you with trauma. It follows up with a fun little side dish of self-hatred that convinces you the trauma didn’t even count. You survive something awful, sometimes for years, and instead of your brain saying, “Wow, that was terrible, […]
Healing Is Boring, and That’s the Point
I woke this morning and nothing was wrong. I had a good night’s sleep. It was the weekend and I had a chilled and relaxing few days to look forward to, but still, I was feeling like something was off. This has been happening a lot lately. And as unsettling as it is, there’s a […]
Not Everyone Wants You To Heal
There’s a hard truth many of us run into on the healing journey: not everyone actually wants to see you heal. Now, I don’t mean that in a dramatic villain-twirling-mustache kind of way. It’s rarely that obvious or intentional. But healing makes people uncomfortable, especially those who aren’t ready to look inward. When we start […]
Letting People Be Wrong About Me
For most of my life, I’ve kept things pretty close to the chest. I wasn’t the kind of person to open up easily. Sharing my thoughts and feelings with others felt… risky. But something’s been shifting lately. As I’ve started working on myself and my healing, I’ve realized just how powerful vulnerability can be. I […]
