When I walked into my first therapy session, I had absolutely no idea what I was doing. I honestly thought it’d be like the movies, me lying on a leather couch while some therapist with glasses scribbles notes and gently asks about my childhood, in a soothing voice that would have me opening up like […]
NYC Grit and Healing: Living with CPTSD
The Survival Instinct of New York In New York, survival isn’t optional; it’s the baseline. If you want something here, you don’t wait politely in line; you slide into the gap before someone else does. (If you’ve ever stood on a subway platform at rush hour, you know: hesitation equals death. Or at least, a […]
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Why CPTSD Makes Failure Feel Safer
Setting Myself Up To Fail When I first started therapy and learned about my CPTSD, I did one thing over and over: I set myself up to fail. My brain was on a mission to prove its own negativity right. Weirdly, failure felt safer; if it was coming anyway, at least I was in control. […]
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Healing Hurts Before It Heals
The Truth No One Tells You at the Beginning In my most recent Healing Out Loud episode, I talk about something no one warns you about: healing hurts before it heals. Most people picture recovery as a peaceful climb into some serene place. But the truth? It feels more like tearing up the old floorboards […]
Is Your Healing for You or the Algorithm?
Since I started this journey of being open about my trauma and sharing it, I’ve met some wonderful people, people who’ve taught me things and welcomed me into this messy, beautiful community of those of us trying to heal. One thing I have noticed, however, is that some people out there are healing louder than […]
The Dark Side of New Age Healing Trends
I’m just going to come right out and say it: TikTok (and yes, Instagram too) has its place. But it’s become a breeding ground for a lot of nonsense, where people are taking mental health advice from Sheila, the New Age guru who pilated her way into the Akashic Records. If I see one more […]