The Thing I Wish My Younger Self Knew Last night I caught myself thinking, what’s the one thing I’d tell my younger self if I had the chance? The answer came to me quick, sharp, and almost painful. Speak up. That’s it. That’s the answer. If you want to read more of what I’d tell […]
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Healing Out Loud: Writing My Trauma Online
Why I Share My Story Online Some people keep diaries. I decided to keep mine on the internet, where strangers (hi!) can read it. And for someone who has always been a private person, it seems like an odd choice to make. On paper, it doesn’t make sense. Why would a guy who spent most […]
The Never-Ending CPTSD Checklist
Living with CPTSD is a Never-Ending Checklist Living with CPTSD, for me, is like living with a checklist that I’m constantly trying to check things off. The symptoms, the feelings, the actions. It’s like I’m carrying around this invisible clipboard. I’ll look at it and think: okay, did I manage my triggers today? Check. Did […]
Writing for Myself: Lessons from Year One
Hitting the Wall When I started this website, I was honestly at a point where I’d hit a wall. My personal life was a total shit show, to put it bluntly, and everything inside me was bubbling up with nowhere to go. I’d been journaling, but it was just messy thoughts scattered across a notepad. […]
The Questions That Never Got Answers
I’ve generally been a curious person. I just like learning things. Researching, asking questions, seeing how things work. There’s a satisfaction to be found in pulling apart the mess and trying to put it back together in a way that makes sense, even if it only makes sense to me. But trauma doesn’t always come […]
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Realizing I Have Many Lost Years
When my aunt passed away last December, I was made executor of her will and estate. Something that I felt wasn’t my place or that I should do. It wasn’t because I felt I couldn’t do it, but because I lived in another country and I knew that it would cause some issues within the […]