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I keep being reminded of this phrase. The only way out is through, and the more I am reminded of it, the more relevant it has become in my healing. After all, healing is a journey, and we should never stop moving. I spent many years not feeling things. That any time I would meet […]
After receiving my cPTSD diagnosis a few years ago, it took me a very long time to realize that there wasn’t a serious issue with me. that I was not defective. I had to have it drilled into me that having cPTSD didn’t mean I wasn’t coping, instead it meant as a child, I continually […]
When my aunt passed away last December, I was made executor of her will and estate. Something that I felt wasn’t my place or that I should do. It wasn’t because I felt I couldn’t do it, but because I lived in another country and I knew that it would cause some issues within the […]
I wrote about how I have reached the anger stage in grief recently. But what I didn’t realize at the time is how difficult it is for me to process one particular emotion, and that is hate. No matter how I look at things that have happened, I still can’t say I hate my abuser, but […]
For all of my life, I have feared being loved. Being accepted. I have felt jaded. Lost. Ashamed. Hurt. There are so many different words that can be used to express the magnitude of the pain I have carried around with me. To reach a point in your life where you know you are truly […]
Learning to accept the love I deserve has not been an easy task for me. I have spent years believing that I was unlovable and nobody would ever fully love me when they learned of my past. That, of course, wasn’t true, and it was again my cPTSD lying to me. To accept that you […]
