For most of my life, I was closed off, keeping people at arm’s length, and I had no idea why I sabotaged real connections when they came my way. I spent years feeling numb, locked in a cycle of emotional breakdowns. Expressing myself or even talking about my feelings felt impossible. It was like I […]
From Darkness to Healing: A Personal Journey with CPTSD
It’s said that about 71.4% of people with CPTSD have reported suicide attempts. Of those, 53.9% have made at least one attempt, 18.8% have been hospitalized, and 35.8% have attempted more than twice. (Source National Library of Medicine) At one point in my life, I became part of those numbers. I hit rock bottom. Felt […]
Healing from CPTSD: It’s Messy, It’s Real, and It’s Worth It
There were a lot of times in the early days of my healing journey when I genuinely wondered if I was doing it “right.” You know, like… Is there a healing manual I missed? Am I allowed to feel this way? Does spiralling while reorganizing your sock drawer count as emotional progress? (I’ve decided yes. […]
Not Everyone Wants You To Heal
There’s a hard truth many of us run into on the healing journey: not everyone actually wants to see you heal. Now, I don’t mean that in a dramatic villain-twirling-mustache kind of way. It’s rarely that obvious or intentional. But healing makes people uncomfortable, especially those who aren’t ready to look inward. When we start […]
When a Trigger Sneaks Up on You
Yesterday, I experienced something I hadn’t in a while: a trigger. It caught me off guard, and not in a dramatic, movie-scene way. It was quiet and sneaky, and I didn’t even realize it was happening until I was in the thick of it. Over the past few days, I’d been feeling a bit “off.” […]
The Year Everything Changed (For Real This Time)
If you had told me a year ago that I’d be writing a post like this, clear-headed, grounded, and dare I say… hopeful? I probably would’ve laughed. Or more likely, shut down completely and changed the subject. But here I am, at the start of 2025, taking a deep breath and recognizing just how far […]
