Recovery means something different to everyone of us who have dealt with a lifelong diagnosis of living with cPTSD. We have faced pain and uphill struggles that none of us would wish on anybody. One thing I have come to realize is that non-traumatized people have less potential to achieve the deep inner peace that […]
The Dopamine Habit And CPTSD
Those of us that have experienced childhood trauma missed out on so much. One of those things was the feel-good feelings that occur naturally. For us, the simple act of praise from a parent could even make us cautious. Our brains become wired to seek out danger and even something innocent puts us in a […]
Learning To Love Myself For Who I Am
For many years, I believed deep down that I was unworthy of love, and that no one could ever truly accept me for who I was. I engaged in unhealthy behaviors to prove this belief to myself. I felt undeserving of love, particularly because of my history of childhood abuse. In my mind, there was […]
Healing from CPTSD: Recognizing Triggers and Finding Progress
There’s something I’ve come to realize on this healing journey: no matter what stage we’re in, we’re always learning. Even when we think we’ve finally figured it all out, guess what? We probably haven’t. And that’s not a failure. It’s just part of the process. Take me, for example. I’ve been feeling a bit anxious […]
The Moment I Knew I needed Help
For most of my life, I was closed off, keeping people at arm’s length, and I had no idea why I sabotaged real connections when they came my way. I spent years feeling numb, locked in a cycle of emotional breakdowns. Expressing myself or even talking about my feelings felt impossible. It was like I […]
From Darkness to Healing: A Personal Journey with CPTSD
It’s said that about 71.4% of people with CPTSD have reported suicide attempts. Of those, 53.9% have made at least one attempt, 18.8% have been hospitalized, and 35.8% have attempted more than twice. (Source National Library of Medicine) At one point in my life, I became part of those numbers. I hit rock bottom. Felt […]