Things we do to protect ourselves make it harder for other people to get close. Something that I am pro at. Putting up walls and downplaying anything I felt. But it turns out, as I am slowly going through a personal transition, that I am a lot more sensitive than I realized. And perhaps deep […]
Letting Go Of My Old Self
I have reached a point in my healing where I am letting go of my old self. The person who has been with me throughout my many survival years. It’s a process that’s terrifying and a road of uncertainty. After all, who exactly am I if not the person I have always been? I’ve been […]
No Longer Scrambling To Prove My Worth
For as long as I can remember, I have spent time scrambling to prove my worth. All because my cPTSD has prevented me from feeling worthy. And what made it even harder to accept is when I really opened up and let someone in to see the real me, and for whatever reason they ended […]
Learning To Forgive Myself
Yesterday was a very difficult day for me. I struggled. I try not to open up about these kinds of days because I believe I deserve to go through them and that the pain I succumb to is the pain I deserve. When the reality is that it’s not, and that I have to work […]