Having cPTSD often makes you look at life through a black-and-white lens, and that your trauma response to life is not just constantly assessing whether or not people are safe but also whether our environments are safe too. For a really long time, my thinking was on a black-and-white level. You either liked/loved me or […]
Being Who I Am: Embracing My True Self Fully
Being our authentic selves takes a lot of work. To understand what is truly going on in our mind and body. It’s not conditional, but instead going all in on self-acceptance. This requires making the effort to compassionately tolerate our flaws as well as celebrating our strengths. I have already written about letting go of […]
Letting Go Of My Old Self
I have reached a point in my healing where I am letting go of my old self. The person who has been with me throughout my many survival years. It’s a process that’s terrifying and a road of uncertainty. After all, who exactly am I if not the person I have always been? I’ve been […]
Only Way Out Is through
I keep being reminded of this phrase. The only way out is through, and the more I am reminded of it, the more relevant it has become in my healing. After all, healing is a journey, and we should never stop moving. I spent many years not feeling things. That any time I would meet […]
What Healing Means To Me
After receiving my cPTSD diagnosis a few years ago, it took me a very long time to realize that there wasn’t a serious issue with me. that I was not defective. I had to have it drilled into me that having cPTSD didn’t mean I wasn’t coping, instead it meant as a child, I continually […]
Realizing I Have Many Lost Years
When my aunt passed away last December, I was made executor of her will and estate. Something that I felt wasn’t my place or that I should do. It wasn’t because I felt I couldn’t do it, but because I lived in another country and I knew that it would cause some issues within the […]
