If you’re around my age, you probably remember that 80s classic sung by the late, great Tina Turner: “What’s love got to do with it?” Man, that song hits different when you’ve lived a little, doesn’t it? Especially that line. “Who needs a heart when a heart can be broken?” Yeah. That’s a mood. Love […]
No Longer Scrambling To Prove My Worth
For as long as I can remember, I have spent time scrambling to prove my worth. All because my cPTSD has prevented me from feeling worthy. And what made it even harder to accept is when I really opened up and let someone in to see the real me, and for whatever reason they ended […]
When I Feel Emotionally Hypervigilant
My cPTSD causes me to experience a continuous and recurrent symptom known as emotional hypervigilance, and when I feel emotionally hypervigilant, it really can make me feel overly alert. My feelings seem to be on overdrive. I also seem to absorb the emotions and feelings of others around me. I know when something is off […]
Learning To Forgive Myself
Yesterday was a very difficult day for me. I struggled. I try not to open up about these kinds of days because I believe I deserve to go through them and that the pain I succumb to is the pain I deserve. When the reality is that it’s not, and that I have to work […]
It’s Never Too Late for New Beginnings
As people, we are constantly evolving. We learn new things every day. Constantly having new experiences and making memories. Some good and some bad. The journey never ends and instead continues on a forward trajectory. The person we were last year isn’t the person we are today, or who we were last month. We were […]
I Struggle With Sunday’s
Sundays are often associated with relaxation, family time, and the anticipation of the week ahead. However, I struggle with Sunday’s. And it’s not in the sense of “Sunday dread” because a new work week is upon us. For me, a Sunday as a kid was the day that my abuse more than often occurred. Growing […]
