For most of my life, I was closed off, keeping people at arm’s length, and I had no idea why I sabotaged real connections when they came my way. I spent years feeling numb, locked in a cycle of emotional breakdowns. Expressing myself or even talking about my feelings felt impossible. It was like I […]
From Darkness to Healing: A Personal Journey with CPTSD
It’s said that about 71.4% of people with CPTSD have reported suicide attempts. Of those, 53.9% have made at least one attempt, 18.8% have been hospitalized, and 35.8% have attempted more than twice. (Source National Library of Medicine) At one point in my life, I became part of those numbers. I hit rock bottom. Felt […]
Healing from CPTSD: It’s Messy, It’s Real, and It’s Worth It
There were a lot of times in the early days of my healing journey when I genuinely wondered if I was doing it “right.” You know, like… Is there a healing manual I missed? Am I allowed to feel this way? Does spiralling while reorganizing your sock drawer count as emotional progress? (I’ve decided yes. […]
Not Everyone Wants You To Heal
There’s a hard truth many of us run into on the healing journey: not everyone actually wants to see you heal. Now, I don’t mean that in a dramatic villain-twirling-mustache kind of way. It’s rarely that obvious or intentional. But healing makes people uncomfortable, especially those who aren’t ready to look inward. When we start […]
When a Trigger Sneaks Up on You
Yesterday, I experienced something I hadn’t in a while: a trigger. It caught me off guard, and not in a dramatic, movie-scene way. It was quiet and sneaky, and I didn’t even realize it was happening until I was in the thick of it. Over the past few days, I’d been feeling a bit “off.” […]
One Year On, Without My Aunt
It’s been a year since we lost my aunt, and honestly, it feels different than any other loss I’ve experienced. My aunt was the last of my maternal relatives, my mom’s youngest sister, and after my mom passed in 2007, she took on the role of a second mom to me. She was my guide, […]
