My cPTSD causes me to experience a continuous and recurrent symptom known as emotional hypervigilance, and when I feel emotionally hypervigilant, it really can make me feel overly alert. My feelings seem to be on overdrive. I also seem to absorb the emotions and feelings of others around me. I know when something is off […]
Yesterday was a very difficult day for me. I struggled. I try not to open up about these kinds of days because I believe I deserve to go through them and that the pain I succumb to is the pain I deserve. When the reality is that it’s not, and that I have to work […]
As people, we are constantly evolving. We learn new things every day. Constantly having new experiences and making memories. Some good and some bad. The journey never ends and instead continues on a forward trajectory. The person we were last year isn’t the person we are today, or who we were last month. We were […]
Sundays are often associated with relaxation, family time, and the anticipation of the week ahead. However, I struggle with Sunday’s. And it’s not in the sense of “Sunday dread” because a new work week is upon us. For me, a Sunday as a kid was the day that my abuse more than often occurred. Growing […]
In my fifth decade on this earth, I’m only now beginning to accept that I can’t fix everything, no matter how badly I want to. And that truth? It’s brutal. Since I was a kid, I’ve carried this deep, unrelenting need to fix things. Not just the broken toy kind of fixing, but people, relationships, […]
There is no truth to people saying that trauma makes you stronger. The fact is, it doesn’t. Trauma breaks you. It eats you alive and spits you back out in tiny pieces that you no longer recognize, and what is left are complex problems that you spend the next how many years trying to work […]
