For most of my life, I was closed off, keeping people at arm’s length, and I had no idea why I sabotaged real connections when they came my way. I spent years feeling numb, locked in a cycle of emotional breakdowns. Expressing myself or even talking about my feelings felt impossible. It was like I […]
Healing from CPTSD: It’s Messy, It’s Real, and It’s Worth It
There were a lot of times in the early days of my healing journey when I genuinely wondered if I was doing it “right.” You know, like… Is there a healing manual I missed? Am I allowed to feel this way? Does spiralling while reorganizing your sock drawer count as emotional progress? (I’ve decided yes. […]
When a Trigger Sneaks Up on You
Yesterday, I experienced something I hadn’t in a while: a trigger. It caught me off guard, and not in a dramatic, movie-scene way. It was quiet and sneaky, and I didn’t even realize it was happening until I was in the thick of it. Over the past few days, I’d been feeling a bit “off.” […]
One Year On, Without My Aunt
It’s been a year since we lost my aunt, and honestly, it feels different than any other loss I’ve experienced. My aunt was the last of my maternal relatives, my mom’s youngest sister, and after my mom passed in 2007, she took on the role of a second mom to me. She was my guide, […]
The Year Everything Changed (For Real This Time)
If you had told me a year ago that I’d be writing a post like this, clear-headed, grounded, and dare I say… hopeful? I probably would’ve laughed. Or more likely, shut down completely and changed the subject. But here I am, at the start of 2025, taking a deep breath and recognizing just how far […]
Letting People Be Wrong About Me
For most of my life, I’ve kept things pretty close to the chest. I wasn’t the kind of person to open up easily. Sharing my thoughts and feelings with others felt… risky. But something’s been shifting lately. As I’ve started working on myself and my healing, I’ve realized just how powerful vulnerability can be. I […]