My cPTSD causes me to experience a continuous and recurrent symptom known as emotional hypervigilance, and when I feel emotionally hypervigilant, it really can make me feel overly alert. My feelings seem to be on overdrive. I also seem to absorb the emotions and feelings of others around me. I know when something is off […]
Yesterday was a very difficult day for me. I struggled. I try not to open up about these kinds of days because I believe I deserve to go through them and that the pain I succumb to is the pain I deserve. When the reality is that it’s not, and that I have to work […]
As people, we are constantly evolving. We learn new things every day. Constantly having new experiences and making memories. Some good and some bad. The journey never ends and instead continues on a forward trajectory. The person we were last year isn’t the person we are today, or who we were last month. We were […]
Sundays are often associated with relaxation, family time, and the anticipation of the week ahead. However, I struggle with Sunday’s. And it’s not in the sense of “Sunday dread” because a new work week is upon us. For me, a Sunday as a kid was the day that my abuse more than often occurred. Growing […]
In my fifth decade on this earth, I’m only now beginning to accept that I can’t fix everything, no matter how badly I want to. And that truth? It’s brutal. Since I was a kid, I’ve carried this deep, unrelenting need to fix things. Not just the broken toy kind of fixing, but people, relationships, […]
Happy Fathers Day! I’ve never been someone who has ever liked a big fuss being made over me. Being the center of attention makes me uncomfortable, so when a day comes around where I am the focus, I try to downplay it as best I can. It’s Father’s Day today, though, and my daughter insisted […]
