It’s officially two years since I started this website and began writing and I wanted to take a moment to reflect on where I am now compared to where I started. Not because everything-is-fixed kind of way. More in the honest sense of looking back and seeing how much of life has quietly shifted underneath […]
I Thought I Was Further Along Than This
There’s this quiet expectation that after enough therapy, enough self-awareness, and enough “doing the work” that something clicks. Like one day you wake up and think, “Ah. There it is. I’m healed now.” Wouldn’t that be nice? The truth of the matter, however, is you can spend years healing and still have days, weeks, even, […]
Why My CPTSD Makes Me a Walking Red Flag
My Nervous System is a Red Flag (And I’m Done Apologizing For It) I’m going to throw this out there: Those of us living with CPTSD are walking red flags. Yes, that may hit hard. It might even make you want to close the page. However, let’s be real, living with CPTSD often means our […]
Two Years Later: Why Grief Still Hurts
Grief Two Years In (And Why No One Talks About It) There is something that doesn’t get talked about enough, and that is grief two years in after losing a loved one. By then, the casseroles are long gone. The check-in texts have stopped. People who once asked, “How are you holding up?” have quietly […]
CPTSD Healing Isn’t Linear: 7 Years In
Seven Years In I am now going into 7 years this year since I was first diagnosed with having CPTSD. During that time I have had many ups and downs. I have battled denial, anger, shame, and even sadness. Healing is never a straight line. It’s laps. Sometimes progress, sometimes circling back to feelings you […]
Healing the Distance Between Me and My Mom
The Part of My Childhood That Still Hits the Hardest I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the relationship I had with my parents while I was growing up. And the part that’s always been the one that hits me the hardest is the one with my mom. Not because she did anything wrong, far […]