Living with CPTSD is a Never-Ending Checklist Living with CPTSD, for me, is like living with a checklist that I’m constantly trying to check things off. The symptoms, the feelings, the actions. It’s like I’m carrying around this invisible clipboard. I’ll look at it and think: okay, did I manage my triggers today? Check. Did […]
NYC Grit and Healing: Living with CPTSD
The Survival Instinct of New York In New York, survival isn’t optional; it’s the baseline. If you want something here, you don’t wait politely in line; you slide into the gap before someone else does. (If you’ve ever stood on a subway platform at rush hour, you know: hesitation equals death. Or at least, a […]
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Why CPTSD Makes Failure Feel Safer
Setting Myself Up To Fail When I first started therapy and learned about my CPTSD, I did one thing over and over: I set myself up to fail. My brain was on a mission to prove its own negativity right. Weirdly, failure felt safer; if it was coming anyway, at least I was in control. […]
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Healing Hurts Before It Heals
The Truth No One Tells You at the Beginning In my most recent Healing Out Loud episode, I talk about something no one warns you about: healing hurts before it heals. Most people picture recovery as a peaceful climb into some serene place. But the truth? It feels more like tearing up the old floorboards […]
Writing for Myself: Lessons from Year One
Hitting the Wall When I started this website, I was honestly at a point where I’d hit a wall. My personal life was a total shit show, to put it bluntly, and everything inside me was bubbling up with nowhere to go. I’d been journaling, but it was just messy thoughts scattered across a notepad. […]
Raysa on CPTSD Recovery & Healing
Meet Raysa She’s a singer-songwriter, podcaster, writer, and mental health advocate who has turned her survival of narcissistic abuse and life with C-PTSD into art, conversation, and community. As host of the Hello Trauma Brain podcast, Raysa shares her healing journey while creating space for others to feel less alone. With a background in psychology […]