The Pull I Couldn’t Explain. I used to think healing from CPTSD was about finding answers in books. It turns out sometimes it’s about buying a plane ticket to Dublin because your body refuses to be ignored any longer. I’m finally moving out of the ‘in-between’ space, that strange, uncomfortable gap between who I had […]
I’ve been asked a lot what actually helped me the most in my healing journey and what made the biggest difference in getting me to where I am now. My answer? Music. And I don’t mean in the cheesy “music heals” Pinterest quote kind of way. I mean genuinely. And deeply. In a way that […]
It’s officially two years since I started this website and began writing and I wanted to take a moment to reflect on where I am now compared to where I started. Not because everything-is-fixed kind of way. More in the honest sense of looking back and seeing how much of life has quietly shifted underneath […]
There’s a symptom of CPTSD that I don’t think people talk about enough. And that’s the emotional whiplash of being completely overwhelmed one minute and then absolutely nothing the next. Like your nervous system just slams the emergency brake. And let me tell you, this is a symptom that I still have regularly, even after years […]
There comes a point in CPTSD healing where you realize this has a shape to it. A beginning. A long, messy middle. And then, not an ending exactly, but a different way of living with yourself. And the longer you do this work, the more obvious it becomes that healing is not a straight line […]
The Prosecution’s Case If you have CPTSD and you’re reading this, you probably know exactly what I’m talking about. That emotional black hole we fall into, the one that suddenly starts dragging up every bad thing we’ve ever done, every bad thing that’s ever been done to us, and every awkward interaction since 1997 and […]
