Someone recently asked me if it’s possible to date when you have CPTSD.
The short answer? Yes.
The real answer? Yes, but it’s not just about whether you can date. It’s about how you date, who you date, and what kind of support, communication, and self-awareness you bring to the table.
Now, I’m not currently dating, but that question stuck with me and got me thinking: what would dating with CPTSD even look like?
In short, it’s like going on a first date with a hyper-vigilant emotional support raccoon living in your chest. Always on alert, ready to react, but also needing care and understanding. After all, those of us with CPTSD don’t have a “wall” around our heart; we’ve got a fortress, a moat, and a fire-breathing dragon trained to hiss at vulnerability. And the dragon? His name’s Hypervigilance. He sleeps with one eye open and will definitely judge your texting patterns.
My (Hypothetical) Dating Profile
If I ever had a dating profile (which I don’t, you’re welcome, world), it might look something like this:
“Fluent in trauma responses and sarcasm. Hobbies include overthinking, exit strategies, and cracking jokes during emotionally intimate conversations. Looking for someone who doesn’t view emotional unavailability as a fun challenge. Must love dogs, patience, and talking me down from imaginary catastrophes.”
Yes, I come with baggage. A lot of it. But at least it’s color-coded and alphabetized, and I’ll give you a heads-up before I drop it at your feet.
Dating in a Performative World
I won’t pretend I’m strolling through life with a carry-on. The truth is, I’m emotionally fluent in a language most people barely know exists. It’s not perfect, but it’s mine, and it’s real.
The challenge? Modern dating has turned into a masterclass in performative nonchalance. Everyone’s trying to be “chill” while secretly rewriting their entire attachment theory every time someone doesn’t text back.
Now throw CPTSD into that chaos, and you’ve got a whole new beast. Try reliving every abandonment wound since 1980 because someone left you on “read,” or didn’t reply back. Fun, right?
Being emotionally intelligent and deeply wounded is exhausting. I’m a walking emotional radar, picking up on every flicker of inconsistency in someone else’s behavior. That sensitivity can be a superpower, but it also means carrying not just your own emotional luggage but everyone else’s unresolved carry-ons too. And when ghosting culture is the norm? Yeah. It’s no wonder I find myself wanting a relationship built on years-long friendship, trust, patience, and humor. That’s the goal. That’s the kind of love I want to build.
What I Would Bring to the Table
I come with complexity, but also clarity. I’m not hiding the hard stuff anymore. I’m saying, “Here it is, neatly labeled and fully disclosed. Take it or leave it.” Thanks to years of therapy, I’ve got emotional intelligence and self-awareness, but also a radar that lights up like a Christmas tree every time someone’s being inconsistent. And let me tell you, that gets real tiring, real fast. Especially in a world that keeps telling sensitive people we’re “too much.”
Balancing self-protection with the hope for connection is hard. It’s not a clean or straight line. But if I’ve learned anything, it’s this: honesty, even the messy kind, is a form of love too. It’s the kind of love that holds weight, that builds trust, and that actually does the work.
At the end of the day, dating with CPTSD won’t be about finding perfection. It will be about progress, and about honesty. Also, vulnerability, not as a flaw, but as strength.
Sure, some days the emotional radar will go into overdrive. But the right person won’t see that as “too much.” They’ll see the depth, the self-awareness, and the work that went into healing. They’ll stay, not in spite of the complexity, but because of it.
Because real connection doesn’t come from pretending you’re fine. It comes from showing up as you are and being met there.
That’s what dating with CPTSD would be like.
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